I was talking to Nathan the other night. I was telling him how hard it was that through out my life I have had a lot of really close friends that seem to walk into my life when they needed me then when they didn't anymore move on and leave me behind. It has really bothered me and hurt me over the years. He looked at me with tears in his eyes ( because he was feeling the spirit) and said that is just what it is like to be a missionary. That was something that hit me hard. My patriarchal blessing popped into my head there is apart in it about me always being a missionary just by being who I am. Pondering on it more and being guided by the spirit I have come to terms with my prior relationships and the realization that some of them, I was just being a instrument in gods hands. I am so grateful to now realize what was happening and no longer hurt from being left behind. I truly have a love for those people who I have been there for and pray that the lord will continue to bless me with these friendships so that I can continue to grow and develop some of my talents.
I am so excited about the future that I have ahead of me. Oh yeah I am down 3 lbs from last week!
SOUNDS LIKE YOUR DOING GREAT! DON'T THINK OF THE POUNDS COMING OFF, JUST FOCUS ON BEING HAPPY THEN THEY WILL JUST FALL OFF BEFORE YOU KNOW IT! YOU ARE SUCH A STRONG PERSON AND I HAVE ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT! YOU MAY HAVE DOUBTED YOURSELF IN THE PAST BUT THE PEOPLE THAT REALLY KNOW U, KNOW U HAVE BEEN A HUGE INSPIRATION IN THERE LIFE! THAT INCLUDES ME! LOVES YA AND U KNOW I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN HERE FOR U AND ALWAYS WILL NO MATTER HOW FAR AWAY I LIVE!!!!!
ReplyDeleteHey I am so glad that you posted a comment on my blog so I could find yours. You are a great friend! I am glad you are a part of my life.
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