Oh the basement!

I was cleaning the office I just happened to glance behind it to find a whole bunch of mold!! Needless to say we had to rip apart the whole office! It had gotten into the carpet and desk. Which we now have to replace. So nathan and my dad started to pull the sheet rock off. It turned out to be a leak in the foundation. which ran by the window so we also have to pull that out and replace all the framing of the wall and all around the window. What a mess it is still a work in progress!

2 weeks down!

So It has been 2 weeks and things are going okay. I get my stitches out on friday! I'm so excited just to soak in a bath, not being able to wash my foot two weeks I hate! I'm just trying to take everything one day at a time. After talking to the doctor last week reality set in! I have to be off it completely for 6 weeks then I can slowly start putting more and more weight on it. This is going to be the longest two months of my life for me and my mom! I going to have these crutches for a while. It is so hard not to be able to pick up my baby and carry her. I just have to keep telling myself one day at a time, one day at a time this will get easier!

If you got to do something do it right!

On Saturday I was chasing down the stairs with Caitlyn. I got to what I thought was the bottom stair and started walking normally. It turned out I wasn't at the bottom yet I had one more stair to go! I landed on my toes and bent them back and felt 2 pops! I yelled up to Nathan I need you I think I just broke my foot! It was 9:45 at night so after my grandma came to my house to stay with the girls we went to the ER (all instacares were closed at this time). So we get there and they took xrays of my foot. They came in told me I had a hair line fracture in the middle of my foot and that I need to go see a podiatrist next week. So I made a appointment for today. I go in and he looks at the xrays and says that (in a completely different place then what they said in the ER) I had broken a piece off the bone on the side of my foot and that the bones from big toe down were spread too far apart from the rest of my foot. Then he goes on to say I need surgery! They need to put a pin in my foot so I don't have even worse problems with it 5 years from now. What! I thought that all I had was a hairline fracture and now I need surgery! This sucks! So with in a week or so I have to go in for surgery and for 6 weeks I can't not walk on it! I don't know what I'm going to do I have 3 young children and 6 weeks of no walking that nearly impossible. I guess I'm going to have to actually let people help me! This is so hard for me! I guess this experience is suppose to teach me that I need others just as much as they need me!

This is the first time I have ever broken anything! So I guess if I'm going to do something I better do a great Job with it. The doctor said that if a professional athlete had gotten an injury of this type it could end his career!
Wish me luck as start on the next journey of my life!

Chargrilled chicken sandwich

The other day i was down stairs working on laundry when Caitlyn came and asked me if she could have her sandwich from last night. (wendy's kid meal chicken sandwich) So I told her yes and forgot about it. About 10 minutes later the smoke detector went off! I was thinking what is going on why is that going off! I raced up the stairs to find the microwave filled with smoke! I wasn't even thinking about her wanting it warmed up! Gotta love five year olds need for independence! But I stopped the microwave and opened it up to figure out what it was. After the smoke all escaped I found this.

I was very grateful to have smoke detector that day! I can't even imagine what would of happened! She had it set for like 30 minutes and it looked like this after 10! I felt like a great mom that day! :(
My house smelled like it for a week and my microwave still does to this day! But hey it still works!

Sleeping beauty

We've been have trouble with getting lydia to stay in bed when it is bed time. The other night Nathan came around the corner of the family room to find this!






He says to me do you think she is going to fall. So came around to see what he was talking about. She had sneaked down and sat on the stairs and fell asleep! We had a good laugh about this one there is no way she could of possibly been comfortable!

Something that I learned

I was talking to Nathan the other night. I was telling him how hard it was that through out my life I have had a lot of really close friends that seem to walk into my life when they needed me then when they didn't anymore move on and leave me behind. It has really bothered me and hurt me over the years. He looked at me with tears in his eyes ( because he was feeling the spirit) and said that is just what it is like to be a missionary. That was something that hit me hard. My patriarchal blessing popped into my head there is apart in it about me always being a missionary just by being who I am. Pondering on it more and being guided by the spirit I have come to terms with my prior relationships and the realization that some of them, I was just being a instrument in gods hands. I am so grateful to now realize what was happening and no longer hurt from being left behind. I truly have a love for those people who I have been there for and pray that the lord will continue to bless me with these friendships so that I can continue to grow and develop some of my talents.

I am so excited about the future that I have ahead of me. Oh yeah I am down 3 lbs from last week!

A New Begining

I am so grateful to start a new year! I have started a kind of journey with in myself trying to discover me. I don't think that I have ever really known who I am, the things I like and the things I don't, or even the things I really love to do. I've kinda always been a follower. I have liked what other people have liked and have made choices based on what I think others opinions will be. It had really brought me to a place in my life that I didn't like and I just kept going though bouts of depression. Really the only thing that I found in my life that I discovered and know is true for myself is the gospel of Jesus Christ. I know that is only thing that has kept me going though the last few years. .
I have been through a lot of soul searching lately, I mean a lot, thinking about myself and my life. It's kinda made me realize how important it is to live your own life and be your own individual person! To develop my own opinion on things and not fall back on someone else and actually caring about how I'm treated by others.
I've learned some of the reasons why I gained 60lbs (besides eating too much) over the last 7 years. I'm learning how to deal with stress better. And how to let new people into my life again. I have been trying to lose myself into the service of others in every way that I can. I am gaining confidence again and over coming my social anxiety that I developed when I started high school. I am learning not to internalize everything and bottle things up but to release it either by writing letters or talking to Nathan. (I do have to say that he is the greatest gift that i have ever been given in my life!)

Now that I have been thinking about a lot of things its time for me to start my changes. The first thing that I need to do is lose the unhealthy weight that I have put on over the last 7 years. I have started a new life style and been doing okay with it but it has only been three days so that really doesn't say much . I have started a new diet. Now I just need to work exercise into also. So I am going to start with that and let the other changes I need to make fall into place as I go along so that i can keep the weight off. I am just so grateful to have such a supportive husband who loves and cares for me no matter what. I love you Nathan!